Today is the day. I am finally going to tell Damien about my job and the part he is going to play in it. All he has to do is attend the meeting with Tony. After that I will let him focus on his own task instead of dragging him into mine.I have done awful things that a decent human should never do so will not force him into the mafia or put him in any danger.
And uhm, this is is kind of akward, but last entry I forgot to mention: at the moment of writing that I was 7 months pregnant. At that point in time I was somewhere else completely and forgot to tell. Well, now I have a little girl named Diana, My only daughter! I love the boys, I really do; but after living with 6 men vs 3 women for a few years now it feels good for there to be another girl in the household. Even if she is just really small right now. –Mika
Entry 2.2: Stars
So, Today I had the most Awkward conversation with mom. It was almost as awkward as the one with dad. Almost. She told me she was a mafia boss. Can you believe this!? My dear sweet mother who feels bad for the fish she feeds us and loves joking and messing with people!? I couldn’t believe it until she told me the story behind the scar on her cheek. It was about Aunt Naomi and happend 10 years ago; I was only five when this happened. She told me the whole story: Aunt Naomi being sick, the fight with Tony and even the murder. I am still having a hard time believing this, but it does answer a lot of questions.
I’ve also been seeing Charlie more in the last few months. We usually hang out at night near the river. We lay in the sand and just talk. Last night she said something that really stuck with me. I don’t know why, but she didn’t seen her usual angry self when she said this. She sounded full of hope, dreams and wishes; so full of life and inspiration.
“We’re all hoping for a better ending; that someday when we look up to the night sky we will see thousands of sparkling stars instead of thick grey clouds.” So bright and clear. Almost like a star. So close and yet a thousand miles away. -Damien