After reading that last entry over and over again I realized something. I want a family. Maybe not a big one like mom had, but a kid or two would be nice. The problem is Charlie. I have no idea if she wants this at all, and I have absolutely no right to force her into anything. Especially not something this big. She may be my wife, but she is not my property. Just imagine; everything I dreamed of could be true.
Just a Dad, a mom and a child. A simple apple pie-life is that too much to ask? Our parents’ health is decaying, and quickly. I want them to meet their grandchild before they pass. Especially mom. Moving on from my little dilemma; lets write about something happier today. For example, Alice and Laurence will be starting in their fields soon. They are Months away from their birthday and so excited to leave home for the first time.
Lenny has recovered from his shock a bit and is now constantly following me around. He says he wants to be a writer, just like me. I’d be proud if he did, but I have the feeling it’s just a phase originating from the bedtime stories I tell him. Oh well, only time can tell. Everything is pretty peaceful right now. Mom is slowly coming to terms with that she isn’t what she used to be, and started helping around the house a bit more, so no more flooded bathrooms and powerless evenings.
It even allowed aunt Naomi to get her job back! She only works on weekends and we don’t really need the money, but I think she enjoys seeing what the system she built from the ground up all those years ago has become.
I suppose that these days being happy about little things is whats important. Dwelling on the past isn't healthy; and neither is worrying about the future. -Damien